TROUBLE

It will be alright. This thing has most likely happend to you before and wont be that
severe. All you have to do is to hope that your grades are good so that you can have
all your stuff back and then there should be no problems. Thats what I think.

There was one thing that I also was thinking. About the cd player in the car and how
much that you dislike anime. I dont know if I can stop listening to this music or stop
watching anime. Its just a part of who I am. I just wanted you to be aware of that. I
love you and all, I just dont think that Ill be able to give up the music/anime.

Its just my taste in tv shows and music (the fact that you got me interested in country
music is interesting ^_^)

Thats just been bothering me thats all. How you plainly distaste my choice in anime and
music....and I dont know if you like games either. Like RPG's, Legend of Dragoon, The FF
series, Zelda, and countless other games.

The only question I have is, "Your not going to try to change who I am are you?" Thats
the only thing that I can think of right now. I dont know If I can change where that is
concerned. As the saying goes, once an anime/gaming freek, always and forever this
applys.

Its like me telling you that you can never listen to country music again, taking the cd
player away from me and puttin it under the seat.

I guess its me going allittle out of it for once, Ill be ok eventually.

Yours forever,
~Chris 

Okay... here it is 5th period and no sign of you... hmm... maybe you couldn't get on or
you didn't go to the library or something... I won't be able to check anything tonight
on Mom's computer so if you don't get on, maybe I'll talk to you tonight if I get a
chance to call... I'll try to call between 9 and 10... I'll call using the cordless in
my room... hopefully I can call you cause I miss you.. I know it's only been a day
since I've seen you but when I CAN'T see you, it makes everything worse.  It really
sucks cause I don't know when I'm gonna get to see you again... I mean, and on the week
I could see you a lot... like tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday... and then Sunday
morning... but I don't know if I'll be able to see you any of those days OR Sunday...
it depends on how long she stays mad at me... I don't wanna go home... urg... for once,
I WANT to stay in school... and Mom's all mad at me and stuff on the day/week I have
really good news I wish I could just tell her but if I tell her she will probably
ignore me or say "whatever".  I've been telling all my teachers that I have to have my
interum by Thursday... I'm gonna ask that I get my algebra 2 one again on this Thursday
because last time it was like 2 points from a B and we turned in a graded homework (I
know that's a 100%) and we did a quiz that I got a 92% on so I know it's a B now but
I'm just hoping that she'll give me another interum... I dunno... I had a C in english
too but I had to make-up a test and I did and I don't know what I got but it's better
then the 0 he had it marked as becuase I didn't do it... I really wish you would get on
and say something to me.. ::sniffles::  I also wish that I could cheer up a little... at
least to the point that everyone would stop asking what's wrong because when they do I
get teary eyed and I can't stop it... I dunno... I guess it's that whole "I'm
emotional" thing... I wonder if Mom is gonna start treating me like her kid again...
it's easy for her to do since I wasn't her's a while ago... I've only been her kid for
about 3 years... she gave me up for adoption when I was like 2 and my grandfather
adopted me and then when he died in 2000, she got me back.. I mean, if she can give me
up, then it's not hard for her to act like I'm not her child or not there... she
doesn't do that with Kenny and Joey because they've been with her their whole lives...
I mean, Kenny even says stuff like that.. "Everything was fine until you and Joey came
along!"  I mean, he's kidding when he says it but it's still hurtful to sit there and
see that she had two other kids that she kept but she didn't keep me... what's wrong
with me??  I don't know... I guess I'm reading too much into it or something... who
knows?  I guess I'll just wait for you to reply or if you can't get on, then I'll TRY
and talk to you tonight... Please have your phone hooked up and be awake to talk to
me.. I dunno... I guess if you wanna go to sleep, you can.. I won't stop you... my
clock says it's 12:01... so I'll sit here and hope you get on... I love you soooo much,
Chris... 

Love Always,
Your Girl Forever and ever and ever and ever,
Gabby

PS:  I had to say it again... I LOVE YOU!  With all my heart, I love you... sometimes
to the point that it hurts... Post back if you can or I'll try and talk to you tonight!
 Love ya, Baby!!  
 

It's not that I don't want you to listen to it or watch anime, but there is a lot of
time that I'm not with you or talking to you or anything and you have all that time to
watch it and listen to that music... I just wanted to talk to you and hang out with you
but you wanted to listen to that music so I took it and put it under the seat... I'm not
trying to change who you are.. I love who you are and wouldn't wanna change you... I
just did that because there is a lot of time I don't get to spend with you that you
have a chance to listen to that music and to watch anime that I wanted the time I DO
have with you to be spent with you... that's all it was...  I didn't say you couldn't
listen to it at all or watch anime at all... I just wish that the little time I get to
spend with you, you would actually wanna spend it with me instead of watching anime or
something.  I mean, if you would rather watch anime or something then tell me and I
won't bother coming over because when you watch that stuff, you don't pay any attention
to me and I'm just like sitting there bored with nothing to do... But last night, all I
wanted was to spend time with you and talk to you but you wanted to listen to anime...
so I'm just saying, tell me next time that you would rather watch anime then spend time
with me and I won't bother coming over... I'll wait till you actually wanna spend time
with ME and not anime.  I would never tell you NO MORE ANIME or NO MORE ANIME MUSIC
because I wouldn't want to take away something that you wanna do... just like I
wouldn't want you to take away something I wanted.. like listening to country music...
I just wanted to spend time with you.. sorry if that was a burden.  I guess next time
I'll just sit at home and clean or something instead of coming over to see you.  

~Gabby 

Okay... so it's like 4 min till class is over and you haven't posted back so I don't
know what happened but I guess I'll talk to you tonight.. or I'll try... no school
tomorrow so she's probably gonna be working me.. if you call tomorrow (you can call the
800 number from a payphone for free.... 1-877-925-5505 and it will go to one of the
phones and you can ask for me...) I'll probably be working but it's worth a shot if you
wanna talk to me and if you have some free time.  I'll try to call you tonight between 9
and 10... please try and be awake and talk to me.  If Mom works me to death I might be
the one who's not awake but I'll still try and call.  I'll keep myself awake so I can
talk to you... I love you so much and I'm sorry I got into trouble and might not get to
see you for a while... oh, and with Mom being mad, even if I get good grades, she won't
give me my stuff back unless she is happy again and I don't know when that's gonna
happen... she might fake it on her birthday but that doesn't mean she'll give me my
stuff back... good ol' cheese wagon... I would ask you to drive me or pick me up on
Friday so I would at least get to see you a little but Mom wouldn't allow that and
would probably ground me for even longer.    :(  Off to class I go... this sucks....
are you mad at me for taking the cd player??

Love Always,
Your Girl Forever,
Gabby

AHH!  BELL!! 

I don't know who I am right now. I just have to find myself again. Im in love with you,
Im just in my own type of identity crisis again. *sigh* Ill come out iof it eventually.
Im going to rearange my schedule yet again. Im just unhappy with how Im handling my
freetime. ex..mornings and afternoons afterwork. I need to find a work purpose.
Untill I get through with my college and become an accountant, I have to find somthing
that interests me, and frankly painting just doesnt cut it. sigh...dunno....I need to
go for a walk...
I love you honey, and the cd thing isnt too big of a deal. Im just blowing it out of
prorportion. me and my bad spelling.lol.

Say high to your bitch and her ex for me. I have Paint Shop Pro burned to a cd and
could you pass it off to him for me? I cant sneek into the school lol.Maybe I can get
you to like anime and its music??? *grins*
then we can alternate country and anime???? Pwease?????

ttyl and I hope that Ill be able to talk to you later tonight on the phone. glomps.
Love you!!!!!!!!

yours forever,
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Can't talk... Mom will be home soon but she said that I cant' get on the phone or
computer or car until I have my room clean and the basement clean (meaning the laundry
done also) so if I get right on it and hurry, I might be done by tonight and maybe I'll
get my stuff back and can talk to you and maybe see you tomorrow... we'll talk about
your last post when I TRY and call tonight... I'll try.. aright?  I love you so much
Chris and I'm sorry you are feeling wierd or if you are having doubts about me because
that's what it sounded like... ::cries::  I hope you aren't having second thoughts
about me.. I love you soo much and hope I get to talk to you tonight.. I love you,
baby...

Love Always,
Your Girl Forever,
Gabby

PS:  I LOVE YOU!!  Do you love me??  Tell the truth.. I'll understand..  :(

TTYL!!  I LOVE YOU!!!