Hi, I'm new. (Obviously) and I need a goths advise.

Well, I realized that my true style was gothic since I was 12, but the problem all starts
out with my two "best friends": we've been friends for a few years and I still don't know
why and how. Here's something that's like a summerize of the situation:

1 - To start off...
I am a goth girl, I don't like fashion and I see no reason why I should worry wasting my
time trying to be the same as others (Which is pathetic.)
My "friends" are prep but they were my friends even before that and we keep each others
company (doesn't affect their reputation), fashion is a -nasty- must and argues
constantly with me. (And we're still friends!)

2 - 
I love dark. 
They love light. 

3 - 
I love night. 
They love day.

4 - 
I love  the full moon, rain/wind/storm. 
They wish exactly the sun and heat. (this is hell)

5 -
I love black, red, black, purple, black, grey and black is one of my favorite colors. 
They love light colors and -pukes- pink.-pukes-

6 - 
I listen to hardcore rock like Marilyn Manson, Disturbed, Sisters of Mercy, System of a
Down, Evanescense, Slipknot, etc.
They listen to -puke- Bitchtney Spears, Hilary Duff, you know, prep stuff.

7 - Art of works competition...
I do poetry, art of bloody death angels, terror stories, you name it.
They are -wtf- ... cheerleaders. (They're still my friends!!!)

8 - Dreams of the divided sides...
I'd wish they'd quit being prep. But I respect them for who they are anyways.
They'd wish I'd quit being goth. They do everything in their power to ambush the tainted
soul that is me. Foolish mortals...

9 - 
I am practically worshipping death, darkness, danger and despair
My friends worship life, love, luxury, and light.

I'm as pale as the moon with waist-long black straight hair, I feel comfortable and
beautiful as a goth and I'm dying to know what they have against a girl that could be
Dracula's favorite bride. What does it matter if I look like (singer of Evanescense) Amy
Lee's twin sister? If they think I look like a corpse thats their problem, who they think
they are to tell me to get a tan? They can freeze in heaven for all I care. (Therefore
I'm
slightly flatter by the corpse comment :blush&giggles:)

We are very different, do I need to say more? Ok, I'll name friend #1 and #2. Then you
have is very little group of outcasts (goths) which are all guys and I really don't mind
at all, and those poor devils'ld mention of the lack of goth girls in the city (I'm one
of the only real goth girls in the school) and I'm helping them with their homework,
hanging out and sharing about the lastest news of movies, videogames, bands, etc. which
makes friend 1# jealous with my popularity with guys. #1 is a type of leader, I'm never
afraid of her, I know secrets about her, she just gets stressful with anything and
complaining about everything, I hate the way she yells and treats people and I still
wonder why she's still got a lot of people talking to her (must be the fact that she does
schoolwork as favors for the powerful ones, like kissing the asses of them just to be
kissed back, the filthy lad). Actually, friend #2 is an evangelic jesus-freak who does
nothing but cross her arms, helps 1# beat hell out of me at an insult duel and follows 1#
everywhere like a poodle. Unlike #1, in the past she didn't leave the differences behind
for a bit. She can't stop ranting about how I look like a naughty satanic crime gal and I
just say "fuck you and your Hello Kitty butt-face ego no one asked your opinion." Now in
early times with 1# was different: she wasn't as a moron as 2#, we used to hang out at
the graveyard laughing our brains out about the math teacher, dreaming about how suicide
is like, enjoying the masterpiece of Nirvana, practicing the use of rituals and Ouija
boards... oh the good times... But now I just don't know. 

Imagine, if it were you, you would dump your now-prep pretty-in-pink fashion childhood
friends for those cute, cunning, dark souls of the underworld which is the goth boys how
really cares about your feelings?
With the guys I feel happy (dude, that's rare) but I don't want to hurt the girls the way
they hurt me, they can be cruel but they helped me in times no one else would. Anyways 1#
might do a WWIII or a catastrophe by making my life a living hell (more than it is) just
for me to regret and I'm sure the goths of my class are not that courageous to defend a
case that is not theirs.
Bloody hell, what made me end up in this situation in the first place? May the Grim
Reaper forgive me for being a sensitive wart, if I punished those bitches until they beg
for mercy will I still be goth (?) or possessing the incompacity to harm a breathing soul
makes me goth? What do you guys think? Revengence or forgiveness? Both? I just need to
abandon them for my own good, I'm allegric to Drama Queen preps and we'll never learn to
get along ever again.